In just under eight weeks, I will release a new song and video called ‘My Silent Night’. If the truth be told, I am nervous as hell. For me, releasing music has always been a huge buzz of anticipation, excitement and of course nerves but this time it’s a bit different. I’ve been out of the action for a number of years now and music has been put on the back-burner so I could concentrate on a very important part of my life; having a family.
Well, as you are about to see in a few weeks time, this part of my life has been incredibly difficult and is ongoing…
In the meantime, I made the decision to get my musical heart pumping again. Not for the purpose of making money or securing wonderful opportunities, although they are always welcomed. More so that it might save me from losing the complete run of myself in sadness. As a teenager, I always used my sessions sitting at the piano after school as therapy sessions. I played, I composed, I dreamed and I healed. And whatever it is that music does for me, it gets me out of some pretty big, aching holes. It made things better then and it makes things better now.
And while I know this returning first release won’t be described in the reviews as ‘joyous’ or ‘celebratory’, for me it really is something to celebrate. It’s brave, it’s honest and it’s important. Breaking my silence about something so sensitive isn’t easy but it will be worth it. It will allow me to move forward musically by letting the sadness out, hopefully making a difference in some people’s lives and it will give me the freedom to move forward in my music, whatever the outcome of my family hopes and dreams are!
Here’s to many years of music.. happy, sad or indifferent. xx
PS. Anyone who wishes to contact me in relation to upcoming projects, please just drop me a line: firstname.lastname@example.org